Explanations, Goals, and Promises

I have recently gone thru a break up. Big surprise I know. I’m sure one third of these blogs are about break ups.

I would like to take this time to tell you that I have written and erased the next line of this blog eight times. Everything I write now seems to come out wrong. It always has a sarcastic jaded flavor to it, and honestly I hate it. I didn’t use to be this person. This person who rolls her eyes and snickers. Well that’s not true. I’ve always had a bit of a snarky streak, but now I find myself ignoring the solutions and possibilities. Laughing at hope and faith, and that’s not the person I am. This was happening before the break up mind you.

 I use to look out the window at night, stare at the moon or stars or something like that and think to myself “I wonder if ‘the one’ is staring at the same moon right now, wondering about me.” But now, not only am I embarrassed to tell the internet how goosh and romantic I am, but I’m actually wondering if there is anyone staring at that moon. And now I feel silly for saying THAT because OF CORSE there’s someone staring at that moon! But time and trial have taught me that’s it’s not as simple as two people finally finding each other.

When you’re talking about love there is just no good way to deal with it. It’s messy because you’re dealing with two people, and even if thoughs two people love each other they’re still people. People change, people grow, grow together, grow apart. People can be selfish, but they can also be self-sacrificing. Some people will chain themselves to a sinking ship and beg others to save them even though they are the ones that have the lock cutters. You get it, it’s complicated.

So I guess that question I’m going to be asking in this blog is what is love, how does it thrive, why does it fail, and how can we hold on to it? I’ll try to ask a question and answer it via interviews, stories, etc, once a week (probably Wednesday). Maybe once a month I’ll try to post a short story I’ve worked on (because I need motivation to work on stuff like that). If anyone reads this feel free to ask your own questions and give your own opinions. So here we go. My very public attempt to get over something very painful. Wish me luck and enjoy the ride.